art by Cher Jiang Yale Station: Letters of Love |
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March 14, 1947
Friday pm
My Darling,
You've spoiled me. Have got into the habit of expecting
a letter from you every day -- and didn't get one today --
see what happens when we get used to luxury? That’s not
a hint -- I know you have so many things to do -- like me.
So I have to console myself with reading your older letters --
(very good reading, too) -- they're something of classics
to me -- my documents, and very valuable.
Haven't much time -- although it’s late, have to go over
to Davenport College, where Clifford lives, and go over
our circuits on paper -- a four hour examination tomorrow,
Feel especially close to you today for some reason -- and
it’s a rainy day. Funny how things connect in one's mind.
I like rainy days, especially -- they seem to slow things
down in some way -- but there are a hundred reasons why
I like them. And, now, anything pleasant reminds me of
you. (As if I needed to be reminded!)
Your little pictures here, in front of me, are the finest
things I have -- are very beautiful -- but I have to turn
them against the wall to get any work done -- the stimulation
is too powerful.
George Niebank came in the other night. He's "running" for
election to the University Council and wanted me to manage
his "campaign". He took one look at your pictures and had
to sit down -- from weakness in the knees. (I agreed to manage
him).
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Those people who are your parents interest me very much -- I
would like to know what kind of people turn out small angels.
In fact everything I know -- everything you have tried to ex-
plain or hinted at -- about your family is sort of intriguing.
I think if I met them, I'd get some new slants on human nature.
2) Very strange that people should be so alike in so many ways -- and yet so radieally different in a lot of others; that they should be able to intelligently communicate with one another for most purposes, and still understand one another so little. Perhaps its that they have no particular desire to understand, for one well knows that it's perfectly natural to be centered mostly in oneself, no matter how generous (by popular standards) he is. We go rushing by one another, noticing forms and not colors and tones. The poor human being throws away so much, and picks out so little (and the worst) for his use in all that's offered to him. We are too interested in the NOW -- not realizing that to- morrow's NOW will be good or bad according to this one day -- that a thousand future nows will dépend on today. I guess I'm quite an idealist -- to some people, but it occurs to me to be a great thing to know that you have left things so that, no matter how magnificent (happy) your life was, the next one who comes will find things better -- find less puzzlement -- find things more clearly understandable -- feel like a greater creature, being able to uinderstand much more than we. May I be syrupy for a minute, and quote a very favorite poem of mine (not mine -- by a fellow Drom goole, or something) -- I think it goes -- The Bridge Builder An old man, going a lone highway, Came at the evening, cold and gray, To a chasm, vast and deep and wide, Through which was flowing a sullen tide. The old man crossed in the twilight dim -- That sullen stream had no fears for him; But he turned, when he reached the other side, And built the bridge to span the tide. "Old man," said a fellow pilgrim near, "You are wasting strength in building here. Your journey will end with the ending days You never again must pass this way." |